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I'm so frustrated right now. I already cried really hard. You know, snot and tears-- the whole deal. And now my eyes are pricking with moisture again, and I just want it to stop. I want you to be less selfish. I want you to act like you care. I want you to put as much effort into this as I do. I'm so fucking tired of feeling like I'm the only one trying to make this work. I can't keep doing it, it's eating away at me slowly. I can't keep forgiving you for the same crap over and over again. It gets old. If this keeps up, I will eventually snap, and I don't know what I'll do then.
Sometimes it feels like that's what you want-- for me to reach a breaking point so I can just be another girl who failed you. I know that's what you expect. But I so, so want to prove you wrong. I love you, I really do, and thus I'm willing to put up with a lot of your shit... but some things have got to change. I can only handle so much. There might be parts of your life that I can't fix-- holes I can't fill-- but I'm damn well willing to try.

But you have to want me to[o].