Heartbreaker

once, you said, "marry me." to this day, i don't really know what you meant by it. did you really love me enough in that moment to mean those words? i remember that i said, "you don't want to marry me," and you laughed and said that maybe i just didn't want to marry you. that certainly wasn't the case. not at all...

you never did understand how deeply i cared for you. it was more than a simple crush, more than a fleeting love. it was for real.

for those few months this summer when you felt it too, life was perfect. it didn't matter that circumstances weren't in our favor, or that our timing wasn't the best... nothing mattered. nothing, save you and me.

"There's a flash and the world lights up in bone-white light, and, for an instant, I can see everything: laundry hanging in the sky, fire-escape lovers leaning on black railings, wet cats shivering in the summer rain."

--Skinny ♠