Happy Birthday

today is his birthday, that guy i used to love. i know it was long ago, but i can still remember it so clearly... and i still sometimes wish things had been different, to this very day. who knows what could and would have gone down?

how would things be different now if anything had happened between us?

you know, as much as i wish i could know how things would be different now if he and i had happened, i'm also glad that nothing did happen. somehow, i think it was better for both of us that way. i pulled myself together and moved on. he put me in the past and didn't look back.

now, we're simply two people with seperate lives. we saw hi in the halls occasionally, but that's about the extent of our relationship these days. every once in a while, we have a short conversation about how life is treating us.

the funny thing? i'm okay with that.

it still stings a bit, the first heartbreak, but it's not so bad anymore.

i saw him yesterday, and told him happy birthday.

chelsea accused me of only remembering it because she reminded me earlier that day, but i just laughed. of course i knew it was his birthday.

how could i forget??

i remember because i learned so much from him, about life, love, and everything else. it's ingrained in my memory, because i am who i am.

i know it's a bit silly to dwell in the past, but i'm okay with that.

he changed my life.

here's to you, _______:

happy seventeenth birthday. ♥