you know, i'm honestly not sure where to begin with you.
ah! i'll start with just that: i don't know where my feelings for you begin and end. hell, maybe they don't. maybe they chase each other in circles; a neverending game of tag. however, the butterflies aren't as bad as they used to be. bad, what am i saying? i love the butterflies. i mean that i haven't felt them as much lately as i used to.
what does that mean? that i don't love you anymore? that i've moved on?
no, it means neither of those things. i still love you, i truly do. but, i think now said love is so much a part of me that it just doesn't affect me like it used to.
bah, i'm muddling myself further. here's what i need to say to you:
i think i'm still in shock-- how did things happen so quickly? you don't owe me an explanation, and, like i said in my previous post, i will take whatever you give me. but what i want to know, above all things, is this: where do we stand now? what am i to you? i do believe that you still love me, and you obviously know that i still love you. i'm sure it faded a bit on both our parts, but it's largely still whole and intact.
i miss you, did you know? i haven't said it to you in a while, though i mean it just as much as always, if not more. did you know that it's been nearly two months since we've seen each other?? that is a crazy-long time, by anyone's standards, to go without the person you love. i really have no idea how military wives stand it. haha, how can i compare what i'm feeling to that? i can't really, but i miss you so much that the feeling has dulled to an ordinary living, breathing ache in my chest. like i said before, it's become a part of me.
where do we go from here?
this looks perfect to me:
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