you know what kinda bothers me? i'm JEALOUS of christie right now. because she thinks she loves her boyfriend. and i think he loves her, too. [who wouldn't?♥]
i'm jealous that things are pretty perfect for her right now. that she has not had to experience heartbreak. and i hope she doesn't any time soon. that particular hell is cold and lonely, and no one wants to go there.
how do i know? because i've been there.
more times than i'd like to remember.
i have done my fair share of crying over boys. four, to be exact. well, five, if you count one of them twice, for good measure. but, i don't mind the tears so much as i mind the heartbreak itself. it sucks, you know? that you let people under your skin, only to find out that they don't really want to be there as badly as you want them to.
but regardless of the possibility of an end, i throw myself into the beginning, and hope with all my being that there will be something there, something substantial, a middle, if you will. a heart in return. is that so much to yearn for??
About Me
- kennuhhh
- The light of eternal wonderment shines through the cracks in my smile.
1 comment:
Well, you're wrong about one thing.
I've had my fair share of heartbreaks, even though I've never had a boyfriend before this. Trust me, I know sadness.
I don't even know how or when I became happy, but I do know that it takes a lot of hard work. And that's the only advice I can give you. Work hard for happiness, because it's not just gonna come to you. Don't keep your emotions bottled in, but don't go spilling everything to everyone either.
And writing in a blogspot really helps. =)
Another thing...
I know that I may seem stupid or immature for using the L-word so suddenly, especially as he is my first boyfriend. But I truly do feel like I love him. Trust me, I'm not rushing into it or just looking for an excuse to say it or anything, so don't get that idea. I only say all this because of your wording. She thinks she loves him. I'm not complaining, I think that's an excelent way to put it. I've never fallin in love, so how do I know if I am now? Anyways I was just making a point that I'm not just throwing the phrase around. You don't know everything it took to get me to realize that I even liked him.
And I hope things work out for you, I really do. ♥
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